creepride123's Blog

Its time for a change in my life. Im never gonna drink again. this change isnt just for me. Its for my little family and my soon to be bride Chelsea. Im single and i hate it. i want my woman back and my family to be together again. I never realized how much i hurt i caused them. I always regret drinking afterwards. I know i hurt them just thought it wasnt such a big deal with my drinking but now. after what happened to Chels. Im gonna change. I finally see how much pain i caused my sons and my woman. I dont ever wanna be seen as a low mother/girlfriend in their eyes. I wanna be someone better now. I never thought it was such a big deal til now.. the other night. Chelsea overdosed just cause of my drinking. Cause i kept proving her that ill stop but when i do i always break it and i keep ruining her trust.. i seriously wanna be better. i dont ever wanna live that lifestyle anymore. I dranked before. i had fun. Its time for me to grow up and be the woman i need to be for my family and my woman. i had my fun. I got my fun memories. Thats it. She just got out of her coma this morning around five. Me and my son Junior stayed up til she woke up and she and i talked. ill have to prove to her again but this time i truly mean it. i dont wanna hurt my family again. I hate it
Whenever i can im going to go to treatment :) go see a counsellor and talk to my woman about the problems we have between us. Everything. Im gonna work on me and my relationship with my woman